My Bleeding Hearts are in full bloom and look so vibrant!  The Spring weather has been much better this year than last. Last year they didn’t even bloom. Nature creates some pretty amazing beauty.

I am SO pleased that My MAMMOTH task (I mentioned in the last update) is finally DONE. I manually went through My blog and deleted like 3000+ blog posts and hundreds of pictures. It’s something I started a few years ago, but stopped because it wasn’t a priority at the time. The majority of the posts were hidden from Public view as they were in a “Private area” of My blog that I created a few years ago (for a select few). The Private area is GONE, but all the content was still there and I wanted that gone as well.

Years ago, I did actually blog on a regular basis. I’d post tribute screenshots, gifts, sexy selfies, teaser pics from upcoming clips and other random things. But then I wanted a “Private area” to share those things instead and only with the most devoted. So I did that and didn’t post publicly for a while. A few times over the years I’d share some stuff on the public side, but not very often. And then I just stopped blogging altogether.

Well, I wanted a CLEAN SLATE going forward and so I wanted everything GONE. And now, that is finally finished. *Crosses that task off the list*

I have updated My ME page and next up will be a revamp of My WORSHIP and CONTACT pages.

One more pic…..

Did you know that the word ‘bleeding’ is considered a “Forbidden Word” on adult content sites? (Along with many others and that list seems to keep growing every year.)

That’s why it is SO refreshing to be able to say what I want on My OWN site and not have to be bothered with censorship.

It’s been raining ALL day and I kinda love it!  I love that fresh rain smell and hearing the sound of raindrops on My skylights.

So….here we are in April. I am currently working on a BIG task that I want done before going forward. I’m hoping to have it finished sometime in May, but we’ll see. I have currently removed My WORSHIP and ME pages because I am revamping them a bit. My CONTACT page will also be redone…eventually.

I’ve also been thinking of creating a new email address and adding it to My contact page in the future. MAYBE. I really like having a PAYWALL to contact Me, it filters out a lot of rubbish, let’s say. However, I don’t like being dependent on a site as a way for people to contact Me. And I DON’T like being censored or having to worry about anything I say/type. And unfortunately that is what it’s like on Adult content platforms. They HAVE to be careful because they don’t want to do anything to jeopardize losing their credit card processing. I get it, I do.

That’s it for this update. Now I am going to cozy up with a blanket and My new book that arrived today… “Becoming Mae West”.  She was so BOLD for her time–I love it!

*SIGH*  (I’m having flashbacks!!)

So….last week I got a couple of emails from Loyalfans about two of My clips being flagged as non-compliant. They did not tell Me why.

I watched both of the clips and had no idea why they would get flagged–nothing I said or did in the clips was against their TOS (Terms of Service). So I emailed them to ask  why they were flagged and it was because of ONE word. I didn’t have the word in My clip title, description or keywords. I just said the word maybe once or twice in the clips and that’s it. And up until this past week, that word was not ‘prohibited’. It is now.

Found out other creators were also getting emails from LF with content getting flagged the past few days.

Then today I was going to repost a clip to My Timeline there and I clicked on the direct clip link from My blog post to the clip on Loyalfans and the clip was GONE. What? *I* didn’t remove it and they didn’t email Me about this particular clip, but they obviously removed it.

So then I started going through other direct clip links from My blog to LF and I found other clips removed from My store. No emails, no heads-up, nothing. One was an ass tease clip, one a findom clip, another a Femdom clip, a foot clip, a panty clip and a few others. I have no idea why they were removed and I can’t be bothered to email and ask about each one, but I’m just baffled.

I did some more digging and found out that Mastercard and Visa are yet again intensifying crackdowns on adult content (aka HIGH-RISK content) and the changes start April 1st, 2026. And I’m guessing like the two clips I mentioned above, that their list of PROHIBITED words has grown.

I don’t fault Loyalfans for this, they are doing what they need to do to stay in compliance with the processing companies rules. And I appreciate that they do! But, to just have content disappear with no heads up and no reason WHY also is frustrating.

Anyway, it is what is. I don’t know if they are done removing content from My store or if more content will be removed in the upcoming days, weeks or whenever.

Some of the content I’ve been reposting to My stores is just not Me now. But it will remain, for now.

Such as…?

Cock control, JOI, masturbation schedules, cum eating, humiliation to name a few.

I used to say that cock control was a required part of serving Me and it was, at one time. But that time has passed. And it’s staying in the past.

Femdom these days is all about….GOONING. How exactly is that Femdom? Where exactly is the power and CONTROL in that? And before that it was poppers, homewrecking, blackmail, cum-eating, etc.

It’s so absolutely boring.

But….GOON anything sells. (Apparently). And that’s why everyone and their sister has latched onto it and regurgitates it over and over, clip after clip.

Why?

(I know why).

Things change, people change. Some grow, some don’t. I have enjoyed creating content over the years but it’s also changed, as I have. And it will again.

Hello!  As promised, here is My monthly update, in no particular order.

Old Paysite videos:  For a while there, I was posting My old paysite clips to My clip stores on a semi-regular basis last year. However, for now, that is getting pushed to the bottom of My priorities list as other things are taking precedence.

Clips4Sale store:  I am still reposting some of the 750 clips that were removed last October. Some of the clips I had on there before, aren’t getting ‘approved’ this time around and I can’t be bothered to go back and forth with support or re-edit the clips so they can be approved, so I’m just not putting them back up.

Contacting Me:  I state that I only reply to messages on My Loyalfans on My Contact page. Well since Clips4Sale has implemented PAID messaging, I can also be contacted on there. As always, it is up to MY discretion who I choose to reply to.

Past content:  Taking this long break and going through My content as I have been while reposting clips, I realized that there is some content that I am never going to make again. Been there, done that. It does not resonate with where I am NOW and I’m done with it.

New content:  As much as I would like to start creating again, there are a lot of tasks on My To Do list that I want done before I move forward. And taking care of these things first is laying the foundation for what I want to do next.

That’s it!

Yes, I realize it’s almost mid-month, but I do things on MY timeline. Always. And naturally.

I’ve decided this is going to be a transitional year for Me. Taking this break has really given Me time to mull things over. There are things that absolutely do not resonate with Me anymore and some that never really did. And it’s time to clear those out.

There are always changes going on, even if you don’t see many blog posts or new content. I will try to do a new blog post at least once a month to keep in touch, so to speak.

Meanwhile I am behind the scenes, brewing up My Mistress Magic and casting off all that no longer serves Me. Are you patient? We’ll see…..

I have been meditating daily for the last 4, almost 5 years now. I used to meditate years ago but I was never consistent with it.  And since they now have apps for *everything*, I wanted to try again.

At first I was really into it. But some days sitting still for just 5-10 minutes felt like a LOT. Some days My mind was buzzing and other days I could easily get into it.  And now I look forward to it. Taking a little mental break from this crazy busy world of ours and the constant barrage of information.

Meditation has brought such a wonderful peace and calm into My life. (Not that I have a terribly stressful life, mind you.)  But it just gave Me a beautiful clarity to My thoughts and more mindfulness to the present moment.

Just taking the time every day to shut out all distractions, sit and close My eyes and focus on My breath…. that simple practice is transformative.

And here is where I segue into why I brought this up….

The mind is where everything begins. With the right mindset, anything is possible. With the wrong mindset, nothing is. Everything starts with a thought.

And My content over the years has focused on the visual aspect of things. But these days, I’m more interested in focusing on what’s in-between your ears.

Imagine My voice and My words guiding you to a relaxed state where your mind drifts off and you forget everything else for a little while. There is so much to explore……

I am. It’s not an insult. It’s a fact. I’m letting you, right now: I AM A BITCH.

Now, I’m not always a bitch. That would be rather exhausting. I can be quite pleasant and charming even….if I want to be.

But, there are certain behaviors that I have zero tolerance for and that makes Me a bitch. And I’m OK with that. MORE than okay with that. And it’s no coincidence that the type of individuals that find Me a bitch, are almost always the types I want to repel.

I am all about ME. And if you are here, well, you should be too. That’s the way things work around here. If you felt even the slightest resistance reading that, then that’s a sign you should not be here.

I’m glad I got this out of the way. I would never mislead you. Quite the opposite, I prefer to be direct.

Moving on!

I am indeed *here*, but I won’t be cranking out blog posts. I will write when I feel compelled. I still have a lot of work to do on My blog. All of the navigation pages are out of date and need to be revamped and there are some ‘behind the scenes’ things that I am cleaning up/working on as well. That’s why I said in My recent post that I was thinking about waiting until things were ‘ready’ first. But I don’t know when that will be and I’ve been kind of quiet for a while so I’d rather just let you know now.

The holiday season is also coming up which always makes Me extra busy, but you know that THIS is where you’ll find Me.

I already have the next few blog topics on My mind…..

Long story short: Clips4Sale removed 750 clips from My store in October 2025. So if you were wondering what happened, that’s what happened. So currently, this is where I’m at:

Short story long:  I knew they were getting deleted and it wasn’t just Me, it was ALL clip producers on the site. (They had been warning us via email and admin messages for the past….9 months or so.)  I mentioned it in a post way back in October of 2021 that Mastercard had new regulations for all Adult Content sites. At the time, it was only all NEW content going forward, all ‘legacy’ content (content created and posted prior to Oct 2021) was OK (for the time being). Well….that changed and ALL content now had to go through a “Compliancy Review” by C4S and it was My job to manually submit the clips for review. I did not.  And I didn’t because I didn’t care. I have been slowly going through and removing My old content and reposting it with new covers and video previews (as opposed to the .GIF previews I had for years). So really, it just saved Me time having to do it Myself.

And by reposting these old clips, they show up at the top of My store list, which is nice. Because….there is no option to sort clips from Oldest to Newest and they did away with PAGES so now it’s just an endless scroll. *ugh* I hate that.  And it’s interesting that I’m making sales on the old content again, which only confirms My suspicions that customers just weren’t scrolling back that far to see it.

On My blog, I have all of My video content in chronological order, starting back in May 2013. If that sort of thing matters to you. It matters to Me. I kind of have an organizational fetish. 😁

It’s been awhile. I know.  And I think it’s time for this post.

I’ve been hemming and hawing about doing it now, or waiting until I have things ‘ready’. But really, I have no idea when that will be or what that will look like so…..now it is!

If you were wondering, no, I haven’t been sick, nothing is ‘wrong’ and nothing has ‘happened’. Well, it has……in a way.

After 22 years of making content, I’ve been taking a break. A much needed break. Because, if I’m being honest (which I prefer), I just got burnt out and kind of BORED. My days of churning out clips are OVER. I’m done with it. And I’ve felt this way since about late 2023. I’ve made hundreds of clips and thousands of pictures and I love what I have created over the years. However, I just don’t feel excited to do it anymore. It feels repetitive. My brain is bored with it. I like a challenge, I like My creativity and interest sparked. That’s when I REALLY enjoy creating!

(That’s not to say I’ll never make another video again, it just means they will be far and few between.)

I LOVE to create, I get such satisfaction from coming up with an idea and making it happen. I LIVE to make things happen. (Seriously, that is My life motto!)  It’s just that going forward, things are going to be ‘different’.

I know what I want to do next, but I don’t know when that will be or what it will look like….yet. It will unfold in time. Sounds cryptic perhaps but I don’t want to say I’m going to do X, Y and Z and then not do it.  No promises, no pressure.

What I do know for certain is that My attention is first and foremost going to something that has been on My To Do list for SO LONG—My BLOG! I have wanted to revamp My blog for such a long time but kept putting it off because I never had the time to devote to it. Now I do.

And it’s important to Me because this is the first step going forward. I don’t ‘do’ social media (honestly? I loathe it) and I don’t like ‘fan’ sites (just not My personality….I can’t pretend and/or I’m just a bitch. LOL). But My blog is My ‘home’ on the internet. It’s the place you can visit to find a bit more about Me. And it’s the place I can write whatever I want and not have to worry that My post isn’t approved, or I used a ‘banned word’ and have to replace it with something else. *sigh* Censorship is so tiresome. (Which is an upcoming blog topic).

So, going forward, THIS is where I will be. I will still be selling My content on Clips4Sale and Loyalfans, of course. But the only place I will be ACTIVE, as in doing updates just like this post, will be here on My blog.

I want to say “I’ll post again soon!” but then I hate making promises…. so I’ll just say that I am *intending* to post again within the next week.