I have been meditating daily for the last 4, almost 5 years now. I used to meditate years ago but I was never consistent with it.  And since they now have apps for *everything*, I wanted to try again.

At first I was really into it. But some days sitting still for just 5-10 minutes felt like a LOT. Some days My mind was buzzing and other days I could easily get into it.  And now I look forward to it. Taking a little mental break from this crazy busy world of ours and the constant barrage of information.

Meditation has brought such a wonderful peace and calm into My life. (Not that I have a terribly stressful life, mind you.)  But it just gave Me a beautiful clarity to My thoughts and more mindfulness to the present moment.

Just taking the time every day to shut out all distractions, sit and close My eyes and focus on My breath…. that simple practice is transformative.

And here is where I segue into why I brought this up….

The mind is where everything begins. With the right mindset, anything is possible. With the wrong mindset, nothing is. Everything starts with a thought.

And My content over the years has focused on the visual aspect of things. But these days, I’m more interested in focusing on what’s in-between your ears.

Imagine My voice and My words guiding you to a relaxed state where your mind drifts off and you forget everything else for a little while. There is so much to explore……

I am. It’s not an insult. It’s a fact. I’m letting you, right now: I AM A BITCH.

Now, I’m not always a bitch. That would be rather exhausting. I can be quite pleasant and charming even….if I want to be.

But, there are certain behaviors that I have zero tolerance for and that makes Me a bitch. And I’m OK with that. MORE than okay with that. And it’s no coincidence that the type of individuals that find Me a bitch, are almost always the types I want to repel.

I am all about ME. And if you are here, well, you should be too. That’s the way things work around here. If you felt even the slightest resistance reading that, then that’s a sign you should not be here.

I’m glad I got this out of the way. I would never mislead you. Quite the opposite, I prefer to be direct.

Moving on!

I am indeed *here*, but I won’t be cranking out blog posts. I will write when I feel compelled. I still have a lot of work to do on My blog. All of the navigation pages are out of date and need to be revamped and there are some ‘behind the scenes’ things that I am cleaning up/working on as well. That’s why I said in My recent post that I was thinking about waiting until things were ‘ready’ first. But I don’t know when that will be and I’ve been kind of quiet for a while so I’d rather just let you know now.

The holiday season is also coming up which always makes Me extra busy, but you know that THIS is where you’ll find Me.

I already have the next few blog topics on My mind…..

It’s been awhile. I know.  And I think it’s time for this post.

I’ve been hemming and hawing about doing it now, or waiting until I have things ‘ready’. But really, I have no idea when that will be or what that will look like so…..now it is!

If you were wondering, no, I haven’t been sick, nothing is ‘wrong’ and nothing has ‘happened’. Well, it has……in a way.

After 22 years of making content, I’ve been taking a break. A much needed break. Because, if I’m being honest (which I prefer), I just got burnt out and kind of BORED. My days of churning out clips are OVER. I’m done with it. And I’ve felt this way since about late 2023. I’ve made hundreds of clips and thousands of pictures and I love what I have created over the years. However, I just don’t feel excited to do it anymore. It feels repetitive. My brain is bored with it. I like a challenge, I like My creativity and interest sparked. That’s when I REALLY enjoy creating!

(That’s not to say I’ll never make another video again, it just means they will be far and few between.)

I LOVE to create, I get such satisfaction from coming up with an idea and making it happen. I LIVE to make things happen. (Seriously, that is My life motto!)  It’s just that going forward, things are going to be ‘different’.

I know what I want to do next, but I don’t know when that will be or what it will look like….yet. It will unfold in time. Sounds cryptic perhaps but I don’t want to say I’m going to do X, Y and Z and then not do it.  No promises, no pressure.

What I do know for certain is that My attention is first and foremost going to something that has been on My To Do list for SO LONG—My BLOG! I have wanted to revamp My blog for such a long time but kept putting it off because I never had the time to devote to it. Now I do.

And it’s important to Me because this is the first step going forward. I don’t ‘do’ social media (honestly? I loathe it) and I don’t like ‘fan’ sites (just not My personality….I can’t pretend and/or I’m just a bitch. LOL). But My blog is My ‘home’ on the internet. It’s the place you can visit to find a bit more about Me. And it’s the place I can write whatever I want and not have to worry that My post isn’t approved, or I used a ‘banned word’ and have to replace it with something else. *sigh* Censorship is so tiresome. (Which is an upcoming blog topic).

So, going forward, THIS is where I will be. I will still be selling My content on Clips4Sale and Loyalfans, of course. But the only place I will be ACTIVE, as in doing updates just like this post, will be here on My blog.

I want to say “I’ll post again soon!” but then I hate making promises…. so I’ll just say that I am *intending* to post again within the next week.